so i have been on winter vacation official for 24hours now, actually longer---for about a week. took my last exam yesterday, and now im free!!! im so glad! i need the break from that DAMN school. i hate it...i hate everything it stands for honestly. some of the ppl there are nice, but the rest i jus cant tolerate. but ill try and complain about those ppl later on lol.
the only bad thing about this winter break is basketball. i jus wish i could relax this break. but no its bball 24/7. my coach really expects bball to be our number one thing in life, and NOTHING else. thats jus the biggest thing that pisses me off about her. im sorry but she has no life, except for basketball, its all shes got. i used to be into bball a great deal, i wanted to play in college. but i got so burned out from it--b/c of her. i think it was over the summer break, we went to this team camp. we had bball games back to back to back: it was like 6 games in one day. and then after that, she wanted us to be in this summer league, and we ALWAYS had to play. nonstop. im so angry. i think i wouldnt be as angry if she would have some fun. basketball can be serious, but it can have a fun side with it. she NEVER wants to have fun. we giggle once in practice and she gets so flippin mad! the ass. coach is the only thing that makes the practices better. SMALLZ lol. hes grreat!
i went to therapy yesterday. and NO im not some crazy maniac(even though i act like one) who is all depressed and everything of that sort. ive been going ever since i came out to my parents, and i told them about my brother. only one other person REALLY knows about that, and i guess i kinda need to talk about it..... in therapy we talked about my family, and how i picture them, how i feel about them. we talked about my mom and dad, and the episode we had with them the last time we were all there. LAST TIME i asked them all these questions like if i brought someone home, etc, etc. and basically my dad said with GREAT FORCE, no we wouldnt except her, and we are not going to accept you. hhmmm YEA! i mean the love me, they really do, but they arent going to accept the fact that i like gurls. well my therapist--who is OH SO COOL, said it was ok, b/c i was gonna be leaving soon, and she thought(she pictured) that after i get out of college, and even when im in college, i wont be coming home. she spoke the truth. ill come home for holidays, but other then that, im on my own, living my life. she said that it was basically all falling into place now.
then we got on the topic of my mom, religion and the BIBLE! ggrrrrr. she liked the way i thought, how i was soo open minded about things, about life. she said it was going to lead me on to a great life. but my parents are SO INTO THE BIBLE and what it has to say. they have never looked outside. Dr. R(thats what i call her sometimes) says ppl hide behind it, and they cant really live their life. so i think thats what my parents are doing. especially my mom. LOL everytime u see therapy sessions on TV, isnt the patient always like--"its because im having problems with my mother." lol. but i had to leave in a hurry(cause of stupid basketball) but she said, "u know u look a lot better. u look lighter(LOL lighter--not in that way lighter), happier." me--"yeah i am. thanks" im always happier and feel better about myself when i walk out of her office. but there was another reason why i was so happy. :-*