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Monday, May 27th, 2002

Subject:FINALLY!!!!
Time:1:03 pm.
Mood: crazy.
tomorrow is the day. the final day that i leave that hellish place...high school. i graduate tomorrow and i have never been so excited in my entire life...ok maybe at some other times, but still. this is so great, and a lot of family is coming, and i think my older brothers are coming in from out of town. then my friends from my old school are coming. its gonna be great. the only thing i hate about our graduation is that we are not allowed to wear caps and gowns. the girls have to wear their may day dresses and the guys have to wear khaki pants, blue shirt, blue blazer, the official MICDS tie, and dressy shoes. thats booty isnt it?? i think so too...but im graduating so its all good. but then in two weeks im leaving for college, like i was talking about before. still sucks but whatever.

u know what else sucks THE LAKERS WON LAST NITE!!! that sucks, i dont want them to win at ALL. the kings gotta pull thru in the next couple of games. i want the kings and the nets to end up in the finals. but the way its going i dont think thats going to happen. but who knows.
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Sunday, May 19th, 2002

Subject:ITS OVER!
Time:4:00 pm.
Mood: chipper.
finally..out of high school. all ive got to do now is graduate on may 28th. damn...ive hated this school for so long and now im finally getting out. the only sad thing is that im really going to miss some of my friends. my lower class friends really. i could name them all, but...i wont. ;)

so the biggest thing that has happened to me other than my last day of high school(last friday), was me getting a tattoo. my tat. is a heart with rainbow filling inside. its too cute! and where i got it, is in a very sexy area. it didnt hurt that bad...it was jus this weird feeling after awhile. i think it didnt hurt as bad b/c it wasnt that close to the bone. it was such an out of the blue thing. it was me, lnzy, and raabia. and we were jus like, lets do this. lnzy got her eyebrow pierced and raabia got her nose pierced. i had so much fun that nite.
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Monday, May 6th, 2002

Subject:explanation
Time:6:31 pm.
Mood: working.
i jus got back from PT(physical therapy) and i had to explain May Day about 300 different times. i also showed them all of my photos. Dan, my physical therapist started to make fun of May Day. he said it was an errie tradition. "all of u girls just dancing around a pole." DAN!! lol we do have music! Dan's not a quick one, but he is funny. he is like corny funny. lol so am i!! lol thats probably why he is pretty cool to me. all the ppl there are really nice, i love them to death. i have to decided on what im going to give them once i leave. which will be really soon.

i go back to the doctor tomorrow. i hope he tells me that i can take this stupid brace off. im walking a lot better, except for stairs. LOL when i go down the steps, thats when u know ive had an opperation. its really funny to watch me go down the steps. u should see me lol. anywho...if he tells me that i have to keep on wearing this brace more, i think i might scream. dr. burns is a little sketchy anyway. i think he expects me to recover from this surgery in like a week or something. he says my process as been going way too slow. well i would say to him, u try to bend this knee, that doesnt want to bend, and learn how to walk again, and go up and down steps-which is kind of painful and then u talk to me DOC!! but i would never say that. :)

ok so May Day...i might as well explain it. when our school was divided girls-Mary I. boys-Country Day the tradition for senior girls as a kind of graduation thing was this ceremony called May Day. it is where the senior girls dress up in these white dresses, and they do this big important bow in the beginning and then do this dance around this really big pole with ribbons. yes i know it sounds really funny, but u would have to see it to really understand. but it is really interesting when you see it, and it is really beautiful. then after the senior girls dance around the pole, there comes the crowning of the May Queen. the May Queen is one of the nicest girl in the senior class-who is sweet to everyone-and jus represents the senior girls class well. WELL, that person this year was me. :D so i got crowned this year, it was GREAT! but i wont go into too many details i dont have the time. but yea, it was a great day. lol. i have so many pictures!! lol

i have so much work to do!! aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!

Thanks a lot Pam for the hearty welcome back. :)
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Saturday, May 4th, 2002

Subject:no more time left
Time:10:32 am.
Mood: blah.
i have exactly 10 more school days left. not counting the days i have to come in for my finals. then on the 28th i graduate-i expect everyone to be there!!!-lol riiiight. THEN the thing that really sucks, is, after graduation, i have 12 more days until i leave for college. HOW MUCH DOES THAT SUCK BUTT? and its not my call, it's only because Mizzou is offering me a scholarship. and for this certain schol. i need to take some summer classes. i leave june 9th and start classes "early in the morning" on June 10th. im already getting ready for everything. or at least im trying. i was planning on getting a job this summer, hanging with friends and jus taking it easy before i REALLY have to go off to college. but now i dont really get that chance. i only get a small week of it. not enough to get a job. i SHOULD stop complaining cause im getting a scholarship noless, but...i still need that break. i wanted to take a nice long road trip this summer or something, and now i cant get that chance. ill jus be going to college a couple of hours away.


HEY, if anyone knows how to crop a picture, email me or something. cause i wanna put my picture in here now, even though i love my little abstract one, but i kinda want to put my funny little pic in there. and i really dont know how to crop it. so if u do know, help me out plz.
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Friday, May 3rd, 2002

Subject:its been awhile
Time:6:35 pm.
Mood: weird.
hhmm havent been here in a bit. hehe ppl might ask why, but for oh so many reasons, that i might have to explain later. a really good friend of mine convinced me to come back. thanks hun!!! and im glad i did. i didnt use it, b/c i thought it was her thing, but i changed my mind on that. cause right now i feel like she is shunning me away, maybe she isnt, but whatever. i dunno, lol.

im in a pretty good mood. a really good mood. hey im MAY QUEEN!! no one really knows about that, so ill explain that later i guess huh? hehe today at the luncheon, i was acting like a queen, it was actually really funny. like what pam was doing to me early on AIM. lol. i was all like, the queen has taken her royal throne. bring me food now or else i will be-head u. or something like that. hehehe

i finally got the chance to tell one of my best friends that i was gay. that took a lot of stress off of my shoulders. but i still feel like im tense. i need a massage! anyone wanna give me a massage out there!?!?!? lol. :-P when i told her, i couldnt look at her cause i was crying. then her big emotional ass started to cry too. i asked her if she had any idea what i was trying to tell her for so long, and she said she thought she had some idea, but she still wanted me to tell her. so i said, "well...u know that show will and grace...well im like Will. jus not a guy." i started to laugh and so did she. she said that she didnt care about that at all, she still thinks of me as a great friend. she said that the thing she was really upset by was that she couldnt help me out, when i was going thru things with my parents, and things dealing with me being gay. i thought that was so sweet. only if everyone was like that, right?
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Tuesday, January 8th, 2002

Subject:ggggrrrr
Time:7:33 pm.
Mood: aggravated.
yesterday i wrote in my journal thing here, and i thought it loaded up, but it didnt. i dont think livejournal likes me. the server is always busy when im on. i think its jus me!! but thats ok. i wrote about my holiday break, which was great. and i wrote all about my new year resolutions--if i follow them! lol OH YEAH and about this gurl...that i saw, and her green eyes. mmmm i dont wanna write the story again, but it was nice. but i turned around and she was gone. yeah...how much does that suck.
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Subject:my italian class
Time:6:51 pm.
Mood: crazy.
aight today in my italian class it was horrifically boring!!!!! so i sat there and wrote down everything that was in my mind. here goes.....

Writing in the corner of the room/Jonathan writing his raps, K. Li playing with her hair, Senor speaking about Italian history. "Sunny Italy" I pay attention for that...it comes and goes. really going right now.

The spring play...william shake.---i hope i get casted. i have the acting bug. i wanna go to NY or LA to try out for something.

I have no idea why Lauren is going out with Av. I need to smack some sense into that gurl.

Ted is funny, but its like this annoying funny.

I need new strings on my guitar...and i need to know how to play them.

Why do they try to act like they are black??

Im hungry, what am i wearing tomorrow

I think Jonathan is sleeping now.....OH Senor jus woke him up.

Religion--brainwashing-makes u think one way, and NEVER another. i CAN NOT think jus one way on something. but my parents are quite the opposite.

I woke up this morning at 4am and turned on the tv, infomercial for Tae Bo was on....it made me laugh so hard.

Ethical Choices--An Inspector Calls. Such a great play...leaves u wondering, thinking, about what u do. EVERYTHING that u do!!

i said this to my friend the other day...."stop wishing for those features, what you have is great. u gotta know that before other ppl. then they will see it, and if they dont then its their loss."

be bold, daring, outspoken. dont care what others think, but not in that way. live for u, relax dont let things get to u, dont go thru motions. LOVE and dont be afraid to.

i love to open my mind to new things-open to every angle.

My tan boots...hhmmm sex-ay. lot of good comments have been coming from them. i need money too buy some more. shoot, i jus need a job.

i hope she knows that im happy for her.

my family--i dont want it this way, sometimes i wish i never told(sometimes i dont), would that matter? will they completly shut me off, or am i doing that myself?

New John Mayer song...dont know the title, but it was nice.

once again im hungry.

i think i should go to therapy soon, then my parens and I will have to go....hhmmm another crying scene i bet.

im definitely a sexual person. lol this convo that i had the other nite. her--"i dont doubt that." me--"dont doubt what?" her--"that your a freak."

i need to take my own advice.

those were all the things that were going on in my head during this LONG class. it seemed longer than usual today. it was awful.
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Saturday, December 22nd, 2001

Subject:this bites
Time:2:30 pm.
Mood: disappointed.
its almost christmas and no SNOW! what is this crap???? what kinda of christmas is it with no snow...i mean i dont live in florida or anything. GIVE ME SOME SNOW!! lol. sorry, i jus wanna go sledding! :)
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Thursday, December 20th, 2001

Subject:**i forgot it all**
Time:2:44 pm.
Mood: chipper.
so what did u do to make me feel better? u sent me this sweet azz song. u jus know what to do, to make me feel a lot better. :-*

~Hero ~
(Let me be your hero)
Would you dance if asked you to
dance
Would you run and never look
back
Would you cry if you saw me
crying would you save my soul
tonight
Would you tremble if I touched
your lips
Would you laugh oh please tell me
this
Now would you die for the one you
love
Hold me in your arms tonight
I can be your hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
Would you swear that you'll
always be mine
Would you lie would you
remember
My angel be have I lost my mind
I don't care you're here tonghit
I can be your hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
Ohhh I just wanna hold you, I just
wanna hold you, oh yeah
My angel be have I lost my mind
I don't care your here tonight
I can be your hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
(Oh yeah)
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
I can be your hero
I can kiss away the pain
And I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
You can take my breath away
I can be your hero


everyone else might think its dorky...but screw them. it was sooo great timing. cause its what i needed. SO SWEET!
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Subject:last nite
Time:2:03 pm.
Mood:enthralled.
last nite after our loss in a big bball game a few of us decided that we were gonna get ice cream. most of them met at school to get their cars, i said i would meet them there. i get up there, it was kind of early i guess, no one was there. i decided to go back home and wait for someone to call me. i dont live far away at all from this place, so it was all good. i get a cell phone call from Katy telling me that she thinks Linds. might be in a car accident. im freaking out basically...i tell her to wait at the ice cream place, and ill go check up where the accident is and see if it is Linds. so im rushing now, i tell my parents about it. its not too far away from my house, but the whole time i was driving to get up there, i was thinking bad thoughts. i see the lights, and that freaks me out. i get up there...i see her standing. im semi-relieved. i park somewhat far away. and when i get out of my car i start to SPRINT to where she is. by the time i get there im out of breath, but i dart out and give her this BIG hug. she starts to cry in my jacket, and im breathing all possible hard. shes ok, but she kinda breakin down. we sit in her dads car for awhile and start talking about what happened. she ran a red light and hit the guy that was making a turn. she honestly thought it was a green light....but it wasnt. i tried to tell her, to reassure her.....shes ok thats all that matters. and the guy was ok.

her dad came back to the car, i left and went home. but all that ran thru my head were WHAT IF kinda things. what if something real bad did happen? what if that was me? what if that was another friend? what if she wasnt ok? what if....... it messed me up for the WHOLE DAMN nite. i honestly couldnt get back to sleep. it didnt happen to me, it jus happen to a close friend of mine. but it screwed me over too. today when we were all at bball practice she had up spirits about it, i remember us joking in the car about it before. she was joking around with everyone else today. but u could see, that she had been crying all nite. her eyes were puffy, but she didnt let it get to her.
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Wednesday, December 19th, 2001

Subject:winter vacation!!!!!!!!!
Time:11:25 am.
Mood: mellow.
so i have been on winter vacation official for 24hours now, actually longer---for about a week. took my last exam yesterday, and now im free!!! im so glad! i need the break from that DAMN school. i hate it...i hate everything it stands for honestly. some of the ppl there are nice, but the rest i jus cant tolerate. but ill try and complain about those ppl later on lol.

the only bad thing about this winter break is basketball. i jus wish i could relax this break. but no its bball 24/7. my coach really expects bball to be our number one thing in life, and NOTHING else. thats jus the biggest thing that pisses me off about her. im sorry but she has no life, except for basketball, its all shes got. i used to be into bball a great deal, i wanted to play in college. but i got so burned out from it--b/c of her. i think it was over the summer break, we went to this team camp. we had bball games back to back to back: it was like 6 games in one day. and then after that, she wanted us to be in this summer league, and we ALWAYS had to play. nonstop. im so angry. i think i wouldnt be as angry if she would have some fun. basketball can be serious, but it can have a fun side with it. she NEVER wants to have fun. we giggle once in practice and she gets so flippin mad! the ass. coach is the only thing that makes the practices better. SMALLZ lol. hes grreat!

i went to therapy yesterday. and NO im not some crazy maniac(even though i act like one) who is all depressed and everything of that sort. ive been going ever since i came out to my parents, and i told them about my brother. only one other person REALLY knows about that, and i guess i kinda need to talk about it..... in therapy we talked about my family, and how i picture them, how i feel about them. we talked about my mom and dad, and the episode we had with them the last time we were all there. LAST TIME i asked them all these questions like if i brought someone home, etc, etc. and basically my dad said with GREAT FORCE, no we wouldnt except her, and we are not going to accept you. hhmmm YEA! i mean the love me, they really do, but they arent going to accept the fact that i like gurls. well my therapist--who is OH SO COOL, said it was ok, b/c i was gonna be leaving soon, and she thought(she pictured) that after i get out of college, and even when im in college, i wont be coming home. she spoke the truth. ill come home for holidays, but other then that, im on my own, living my life. she said that it was basically all falling into place now.

then we got on the topic of my mom, religion and the BIBLE! ggrrrrr. she liked the way i thought, how i was soo open minded about things, about life. she said it was going to lead me on to a great life. but my parents are SO INTO THE BIBLE and what it has to say. they have never looked outside. Dr. R(thats what i call her sometimes) says ppl hide behind it, and they cant really live their life. so i think thats what my parents are doing. especially my mom. LOL everytime u see therapy sessions on TV, isnt the patient always like--"its because im having problems with my mother." lol. but i had to leave in a hurry(cause of stupid basketball) but she said, "u know u look a lot better. u look lighter(LOL lighter--not in that way lighter), happier." me--"yeah i am. thanks" im always happier and feel better about myself when i walk out of her office. but there was another reason why i was so happy. :-*
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Tuesday, December 18th, 2001

Subject:special person
Time:9:57 pm.
Mood: flirty.
so lately, like u, i have been in this pissy mood. but u seem to make it different. u seem to make me forget about every little problem that i have been having, and especially last nite. i dont think the thought of that situation came to mind at all while we were talking. all i could do was smile by every little thing u said to me. u were so adorable. then today, during my freakin STAT exam, there u were in my head. then when i got home u sent me that email-- I Melt With You--and all these things that u were saying in it. and all the things u r saying to me at this moment. damnit ur too cute, and ur too sweet! even though u say im cuter/sweeter or whatever....u r! another one of our little arguments!
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Subject:~*lately*~
Time:12:53 pm.
Mood: weird.
lately i have been pissed off, i have been so mad. so flipping fustrated. i can explain but this space would honestly not hold all of my emotions that i have been feeling these past couple of days. and expecially last nite. and i came to the relization of it all last nite. so many of my friends are going through the same thing, which is comforting, but not. i guess im jus not alone in this, and im happy im not. its jus been so crazy, that i have wanted to scream. ive wanted to say something, but i cant....im holding back. WHY? cause i wanna be here. i dont wanna leave. cause its not me. cause i know.....

john mayer--my stupid mouth

My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change

Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon

We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just slipped out and what went wrong

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now

One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now

gggrrr LOL!
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Monday, December 17th, 2001

Subject:~JILL SCOTT~
Time:2:59 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
very very GOOD SONG!!! and i love her too!


You love me especially different every time
You keep me on my feet happily excited
By your cologne, your hands, your smile, your intelligence
You woo me, you court me, you tease me, you please me
You school me, give me some things to think about
Ignite me, you invite me, you co-write me, you love me, you like me
You incite me to chorus, ooh
Ooh...

You love me especially different every time
You keep me on my feet happily excited
By your cologne, your hands, your smile, your intelligence
You woo me, you court me, you tease me, you please me

You school me, give me things to think about
Invite me, you ignite me, co-write me, you love me, you like me
Incite me to chorus
La, la, la...
Da, da, da...
Do, do, do...

You're different and special
You're different and special in every way imaginable
You love me from my hair follicles to my toenails
You got me feeling like the breeze, easy and free and lovely and new
Oh when you touch me I just can't control it
When you touch me, I just can't hold it
The emotion inside of me, I can feel it

Ah...
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Subject:**that nite**
Time:1:23 pm.
Mood: satisfied.
it was soo amazing! but the nite didnt start off that way, of course! lol. first I had a problem with deciding what to wear. not like u all care anyway, but i went thru so many different outfits..but finally came up with one that was oh so cute. then when our group got there, we went up to the ticket counter, asked for the tickets, and they werent there. they were, but this little BUTTMUNCH at the counter was too stupid to give them to us. SSSSSSSOOOOOOO we had to venture all the way back to my friends house to get this email that said we were on this list. we got back to the place and shoved the email in this guys face, and we FINALLY got the tickets. by friend Lex was all mad about it, but she didnt need to be, cause we got in(30 min. late) but we didnt get to miss John Mayer! so when we got in, it was packed. they all werent there for john mayer though :(

there he was up on the stage singing....i forgot what song, lol. but whatever it was it was GREAT! we finally found the rest of our little group and got closer to the stage. he was too cool! hes a cutie. he sang some of my favorites(your body, neon, no such thing, 3X5) and we all were singing with him and everything. it was so amazing. the atmosphere of it all was great too. the only bad pt. of this whole concert-it was a benefit one, and there were more bands coming on stage, so he had to cut his performance short and go. DAMNIT i wish it was jus john mayer, but he was great the time he was up there.

then for a little break before the next band came on, there was house music playing. lol our little group had too much fun out on the dance floor. we all were breakin it on down, makin a lot of noise and jus actin crazy. then BETTER THAN EZRA came on. now, i have never heard of them. didnt know who the hell they were, but i loved their music, and now im all into them. and if ur a Better Than Ezra fan and ur reading this, leave me a comment or Email me with some good songs to listen to. or jus some info. the band was pretty tight, if i say so myself.

the next band/person was natalie merchant....i believe thats why most of the ppl were there. but we couldnt remember any of the songs she sings so we decided to bounce on out of there. we chilled at another friends house, and had so much fun there too. messin with his karoke machine and all. erick and i were taking charge on that thing--rapping, singing, etc. LOL. GOOD TIMES!!!!

it was a great nite. i had a SWELL time lol.
:D
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Saturday, December 15th, 2001

Subject:~~ITS HERE~~
Time:2:27 pm.
Mood: excited.
TONITE IS THE NITE!!!
ME=SOOOOO FLIPPING EXCITED!


BACK TO YOU

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late

Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me

I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit ever game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette

should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do

Leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
Leave the light on
For me too

Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be
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Friday, December 14th, 2001

Subject:^^unclear thinking^^
Time:9:45 pm.
Mood: confused.
COUNT IT, ONE MORE DAY!!! ONE MORE FLIPPING DAY. yea man! its going to be so much fun. :D

i took that stupid italian exam today. no problem though, i only studied for 2 minutes right before. and i did fine! lol. it was kinda worthless taking that thing. it was pretty simple. i was done really early, then i went to sleep.

my mind is going to explode once again. ever had so many things jus going on in the head that u jus dont know where things begin and where they end. im jus in my BLAH stage again i guess. where im not with it. its not like im in a bad mood, im in a great mood, but i dunno. its hard to explain. i jus hate being the nice chick(lol V)!!
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Thursday, December 13th, 2001

Subject:NO EFFORT
Time:8:26 pm.
Mood: dorky.
dont u hate it when u try to sleep in, but ur stupid little biological clock(or whatever it is in ur body) wakes u up at the time u normally would if u would have gotten up that morning(for school or whatever it was)? lol. yeah! i had that problem this morning. i didnt have to go to school today, so i tried to sleep in, but it didnt really work. lol. STUPID CLOCK! anyway i woke up, all possible pissed off. then i ate, then i went back to sleep. it was pretty funny.

i have an italian exam tomorrow. and I KNOW i should study, but i jus cant. i dunno, i really do have this BAD lack of motivation, but i jus cant make myself open up that book. ive passed it by so many times, and ive looked at the cover...but me opening it, NOPE! lol.

TWO MORE DAYS!!!!!! i think thats the only thing im motivated about.

today my friend called me and told me how she got into college. she got into NYU! i was so happy for her. i was like screaming on the phone, and jumping up and down. she really wanted this so bad. it was jus surprising b/c i was so flippin excited for her, but not for myself. ok i guess im gonna have to stop talking about this college stuff cause its getting on my nerves. i should jus be happy that i got in, and thats it. DEAL WITH IT!!!
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Wednesday, December 12th, 2001

Subject:I ALMOST FORGOT!!!
Time:8:58 pm.
Mood: rejuvenated.
FREAK OUT. HOW MANY MORE DAYS UNTIL THE JOHN MAYER CONCERT....3!!! YEAH BABY! I THINK IM GOING TO CRY IM TOO EXCITED! LOL WOO HOO!!!!

NOT MYSELF

Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
And there are times
I lose my worried mind

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
And words will go
From poetry to prose

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

And I, in time, will come around
I always do for you

Suppose I said
You're my saving grace?
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Subject:im on the outside and im lookin in
Time:8:05 pm.
Mood: silly.
today was such a tiring day! more reviewing for exams today, even though i only have 2 instead of 5! i only have one more paper to finish though, for my psy. class. on classical conditioning BLAH BLAH BLAH boring crap. i did my presentation the other day also, that went pretty well. not to shabby on my part. hopefully i got a good grade on it.

my friend from college came home on saturday and she came up to the school yesterday. we hung out before my bball game. and i wanted to tell her so bad, that i was les. but i dont think she would understand. she would, but she wouldnt. she would act weird, and probably end up not talking to me. it was like edging out, but i couldnt get it all to come. she kept on talking about one of her roommates and how she thinks that gurl is a "dyke." i wanted to say something, but it was so hard for me. its b/c she is so religious(very ggggggrrrrrrr on religious), i think thats why im so afraid to tell her. and what she will think is a major factor on my mind too. but I SHOULDNT care what she thinks, ya know? but i do. CRAP this sucks lol.

anywho VICKI im getting sick of us ARGUING ABOUT THIS. but im sorry to dissappoint u, but U CAN NOT SWIM IN JELLO!!!!!!!!! no matter how hard u try u cant. u try to dive in and u bounce back lol. and if u EVER do get in the jello, u wont be able to swim around. ull jus be there.....JIGGLING AROUND lmao. hehehe thats too funny. i love our little stupid arguments. and ur not winning this one, im sorry. i dont care if u ALWAYS win or WHATEVER, ur not winning this one! im SOO right on this. u cant swim in jello its jus not possible. over, done with, close the books, finale, IM RIGHT and ur OH SO VERY WRONG! lol

EVERYONE SHOULD LISTEN TO MICHAEL JACKSONS SONG BUTTERFLIES--ITS TOO SWEET!
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